Pi day was an emotional day for me. Who knew what would happen. I usually don’t write about my feelings, but I cried today in front of my roommates which is a thing I swore I would never do. Funny how life manages to make you do things you don’t want.
I told someone how I felt about them, and today was the day we talked about it. Granted, neither of us of was 100% sober, but it made it easier to express what I wanted to say. I’ll always have a place for this person in my heart, but the moment has passed. I need to move on no matter how hard it may be. Was I projecting, possibly. I guess I’ve been so lonely for such a long time I wanted to take a hold on a chance I saw.
It’s over, and that’s okay. What matters is that now we will be good friends no matter what happens. Someday what I want will happen, but today was no the day. The sad part is I am keeping a tally, 0/6. I think I’m due don’t you? At least I hope so.
My goal right now is to focus on my school work and my own physical fitness. All my experiences will someday help with future relationships. For now, the most important person is myself.
I can’t deny that I’m sad, nor can I deny that tears will happen later on, but it’s over. The what if’s have ended, and that is what I wanted. Someday my time will come. I just hope I don’t miss my chance.@4 months ago